Awwww GOD! *Dramatic Huff*

Hello all,

Well, there sems to be a cross-European crazyness session going on at the minute between friends and I, for one, am feeling a little bit reluctant to wade into it all. I'm loyal and will stand by all my friends, but without me knowing the full ins-and-outs of the tale, I can't really honestly say that I know enough to comment on a partivular situation. I'm not 100% sure what's gone on properly, as I don't know all of the people involved, but it seems bad (sort of).

Anyway, I love you all! Honestly!

My sunburn isn't as sore as it was yesterday, and it's an even hotter day today (although all I've done is stay in!). I think I sometimes don't take full advantage of what's on offer here in Lisboa. Like I said, we might go to Lux tomorrow, but I might go for a couple of drinks tonight in some gay places, just to see what they are like. If I never go I'm not going to know what they will be like. It'll be a bit weird going alone. I tried to see if Pedro wanted to come out but I think he's going back to Porto for the week end to see about some guy that he's been talking to on the Internet.

On a lighter note... I ate the whole of my chocolate egg last night and a bag of presunto flavoured crisps. Nice! Random lighter note, but there we are!

Ben xxx

Aero Mint

Mmmm, mum bought me a peppermint Aero easter egg, and I ate the bar last night, sooooo good!

Went to the beach at Caravelos today, and I'm a little bit tanned, especially in the face department! Was an ok day, nice to be out of the flat!

Feeling slowly less homesick, but I'm sure I'll be fine in the end. I've realised that I do like my home comforts, and could probably not do the whole 'travelling staying in dorm rooms' thing, as I like my personal space. I'd travel, but either camp, or stay in hotels. I don't care what people say about that, but that's my way of travelling!

I also realised that it's companionship that I miss most, either in the form of established friends or Mark. I honestly think that if I were here with say Mark or my sister, I'd be fine. I find it hard to talk to strangers, and don't usually talk to people unless they talk to me first, I think it's a whole self confidence thing! Anyway, I'm not gonna get hung up on it, and I'm just going to do things my way, and live my life as I want to, without thinking that I have to live up to other people's standards.

I have people in the flat that I can talk to when they're in, and I have Mike to talk to at uni. I think I should just go out a few times and whatever, dance, have a couple of drinks, even if it's on my own. We're planning to go to Lux this weekend, so that should be fun to see, especially now that I have money! Plus ERASMUS are giving me a further £495, so it's all good.

What's not good is that I have to fill in my forms for next year's loan etc.! PAH!

Ben xxx

Back in Lisbon - Send me home!

Back here in Lisboa.

Want to go home.

Had fantastic Easter and month of Eastwood-time.

Back to depressive loneliness.

About 23ºC today, so tanning plan for weekend.

Talked to Rui about my loneliness, felt a little bit better.

Might try the gym plan again.

Miss Family, Eastwood, Lorna, Jonathan, Shaz, Matt, Martin and everyone mucho mucho mucho.

I'll blog properly when I can be arsed!

Ben x