Mark's gone home + jobs!

Schmickles all.

Mark's gone home, but we had a lovely hug at the airport, which is keeping me feeling happy! Had a nice time with Eastwood this week, and it's been great having some company!

Like I said previously, I've sorted out coming home, and so, the brick wall hits. I have to come back to a changed Manchester. Friends have moved onto different things and different people. I've missed out on a years-worth of gossiping, drinking and dancing, or just general conversation!

I'm in quite a lot of debt after this placement. I've spent my birthday/Christmas money and the money dad gave me in Castellón presents for myself, which is good, as I usually end up spending it on something daft. I have now got about £1,500 on my credit card though. I balance-transferred £750 over to my Egg card, so that's interest free for a while. I didn't need to use my RBS card I got before coming here though, so that's good. Added to my £1,500 overdraft, I'm £3,000 in debt (this is obv. not including my student loan though).

All this means that I'm going to have to work my ass off when i get back to Manchester. I hope I can get back to The Lowry. It's good money, I know the job, and I was comfortable there. I know plenty of people there, which is a bonus too. We'll see. Jacs hasn't said anything yet, which might just mean she'll add me onto the rota. It also might mean that I've been consigned to the dustbin! I tried Virgin Trains too, to see if I could work on one of the onboard train teams, or at the ticket office at Manchester Piccadilly, but apparently, they only employ people full time. So that's that pissed on before it even started.

I tell you, I can't wait to get back to working. I'm sick of not doing anything. I've spent a whole year basically doing fuck all, and it's driven me insane! They say year abroad changes people. I would certainly say that that was true, but I don't know if the change is for the better, or for the worse. My confidence has been knocked sideways, I'm not as happy as I used to be, and I've become a lonely reclusive person as a result. Which is not good. Well, I suppose I can't have everything. I might feel better when I get back, I might not. We'll see. I think everything will have changed quite a bit, so it might take me a while to assimilate it all.

Well, I'm gonna go and get a drink of water! I'm off my lovelies!

Ben xxx