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Hello everyone,

Hope you're all doing well! I've ben here for a few days now, and the whole crazy depression thing has set in (again). I was hoping that it wouldn't, but it has. I suppose it's the moving around thing and the change of scenery that has done it. Plus I'm frustrated because my Portuguese isn't as good as my Spanish, and I'm finding it hard to communicate. I'm sure I'll get on fine though, I just need to practice and revise a bit more.

Yesterday I was walking around Lisbon, which passed some time. I think I'm just a bit bored at the mo and when I start to go to uni, I'll be ok, as I'll have some work to do, as well as something which passes the day.

I walked to one of the gay discos the other day, and it's at the top of the biggest hill you've seen in you life! As is much of Lisbon really! Luckily there's a bus, so I'll use that if I can't manage to walk up the hill! lol Or a taxi might be good!

The internet here is all intermittent, and I don't think it's the cable, I think that it's the actual box, because the lights keep going off on it. Damn thing.

I put up all the photos and things on my wall last night which makes the room seem a bit more "mine", as well as the lamp and the rug that I bought, to make it a bti more homely.

I met one of the other housemates the other day, Pedro, who is a lovely lad. My gaydar went a bit "woop-woop" when I met him, as he's a tad camp, but then I might just be wrong on that front. I'm still to meet Rui, as he doesn't come back from his home in the north until Sunday.

Anyway, like I said, I've been feeling a bit crappy today, which has been a murky grey day so I've not really done anything. I went into the centre of Oeiras with Nathalie and talked a bit. She said that I was a bit quiet and that I don't talk much. I suppose it's true, but it's only because I've been here for 4 days! It takes time for me to come out of my shell. After the walk, I went to Pingo Doce, the local supermercado and got some milk, and then I came back and Nathalie said she was going to go for a run, and I don't know why I did it, but I just started to sob and cry like an idiot. How grim. Well, hopefully it's out of my system now and I can start to be a bit more positive. When I start uni, I'm sure all will work out well. I might go out next week to a gay bar or sommat and go and get wrecked go for a dance in Finalmente if I can make it up the hill, then go home and experience a hangover of doom! lol

Well, that's me for now.

Send me messages and love, it's most appreciated!

Ben xxxxxxxxx